Hey guys.

GUESS.
WHAT.









I just had surgery today. Wasn't so awesome only because I couldn't eat. That made me sadface. :C Honestly, I don't remember a thing. All's I know is that they put some tube in me and poured some shit in me. I was fine for a long time, too... But as soon as they put me onto that surgery bed or whatever, I was out. I remember them asking me to switch beds and I was all, "YA, SURE!" I lay down and, looked at a lightbulb... and then BAM. I remember nothing. Anyway, the good news is that they found the source of my ailment. Is in my bladder. Luckily, the situation isn't all that serious so it can be fixed. Most of the time. Also, one of the nurses called me sexy which was awesome. She's my new BFF.

Also, yesterday I went to a therapist. That... was one of the best decisions I've ever made. I told her shit that I wouldn't tell even my closest of friends or family. I MIGHT tell , though. She's (Vitz) a total bitch but I trust her at least. Anyway, in those short 45 minutes I learned a lot about myself. The good thing, she said, is that I already know my problems and can admit my own faults, so it makes things a bit easier. Life's tougher now than it ever was before, so it's good to finally have someone that I can tell everything to.

I have to admit, though... it was difficult to talk about dating... not so much being gay. Thing is, I've never had a problem with being gay and I have an accepting family. The person who I thought would care the most, my dad, doesn't care that I am, he's just afraid that I could get hurt. Or something. Anyway, yeah. It was hard only because I had to admit that I'm lonely and stuff. She suggested trying to tap into "my gayness," so... idk. It's gonna be hard.

Also, the whole "my whole body burns" thing still hasn't been resolved. The source could be my untreated bladder issue, stress, or maybe something very bad. I got a brain MRI and nothing was found, so no, I don't have MS or lymes like I thought I did.

Well, that's all.